Do whatever you want cause You Only Live Once - YOLO 

I wish I can do whatever I want, get the kind of guy I desire, get the kind of friends I'm comfortable with. I can not choose my birth, but I can definitely choose my route of growing up isn't it? I really enjoy being in love but I guess when love comes with too much restriction I can't do it. I think its a scorpio thing.. 

I need my own personal space to breathe, I don't like to be suffocated, nobody likes it I guess? I hope this one week break will be good enough for you to think about it, really.. I wish things still can work out and we've planned so many things way ahead of us, so why not let's fulfill it. Hope you are doing fine now, xx


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"After all the fights, arguments ... it is sad to tell someone "It's okay, I'm used to it". This is not what i want. I want to be able to be honest with you and tell you everything that's been running through my mind. Everyone wants to feel appreciated in some way or another. Slowly, after being so immune to it. You know you want to end it but then again, you do not want to see someone whom you loved so much being so devastated, vulnerable, emotionally unstable and helpless but i saw it. Even though i tried to be hard hearted, it broke my heart at the end of the day. Do you really know me and understands me? Why is it that someone has to tell you what i like and what i don't? This time, i really hope the devastating truth has knocked some sense into your head. I will be there for you as a friend but don't expect too much. I am not sure if i could still carry on, bringing things to a whole new level, again." 


Saw this paragraph of words from a primary school friend of mine, her blog which I used to read, and I came across it again, to kill my boredom I just started scrolling.. Till I read that paragraph above it, exactly speaks how I feel. Sometimes you just can't bring words you want to say out, and you need someone else to deliver it for you. I don't give up easily, but please don't take advantage of that. 

This little dog here, is like my own. So adorable, how much I wish she's mine to keep.

A dog, just like everybody else, time is needed to know each other, to understand, to tolerate one another is just something we need to do. What do you do when you run out of those courage and patience to accept everything? I wish I could tell you too. When two is in love, there bound to be argument, disagreement and really hurtful words coming out of our mouths, but at the end of the day what we really want is to be able to make it for a longer future, being able to lie in each other's arm and look back how silly we were back then.

Now I know what I'm fighting for, freedom. Yes, relationship can't work without freedom, own personal space. I won't say I MUST NEED that extra space to go out with my friends, good friends best friends whatever kind of friends, but I need that space alone. To stone, to sit at home, browse whatever webpage I like... I like to have personal space. And personal space is not equivalent to like being ALONE. I can be together with you in the room, but I need my own space to do whatever I like.

I enjoy spending time together with my love one of course, but shouldn't it be relaxing? Why don't I feel it most of the time? I am so stressed out by what your parents say to YOU, and its affecting me, my mood to eat, I could die for just one peaceful dinner with you and your parents. I hear you guys SHOUTING from one end of the table to the other... Its not enjoying, not relaxing at all.

All right, enough of ranting. Maybe I should create Formspring to kill boredom and answer stupid questions, but then again it'll be causing me a lot of unnecessary weird questions from outsider. Toodles now, guess my girlfriends will be happy that I'm back blogging!